Slow moving slow songs

I'm in Mood for The bird and the bee, Dido, Lily Allen, Kate Nash, Colbie Cailat and Telepopmusik.

Take some time off those fast moving beats and banging drum and basses. No shake asses, no head bangings. Just smooth flying over the mountain beyond the horizon misty blue skies songs. :)

I feel like I'm in love when I don't think I am. Awesome, who says you can't love yourself? Been very unavailable these days. Except to my friends in college I supposed, that's because, I SEE THEM in college. Miss my other friends I don't get to see. I miss Ary a lot. He doesn't want to top up. Oh well, the 'I don't care about my phone' phase. -_________-"

Graduating CIMP in another 18days or so. Gosh, workload, is UNBEARABLE I tell you. UNBEARABLE! I've like 4 research papers, 2 presentations, homework's and those little petty things like print this, print that. Gahh, God Save Me.

Contemplating between to go C&C on Saturday or stay a goody goody for the night. Get to see good people and places if I go. Tempting right? A lot of work though. How to cope. :'C

Slowmovingslowsongs. :(
Yours truly,
Confused and helpless.

Take it higher

Let it go,
It's the end of crashing nights,
Put a stop to those endless tears,
And stand up once again,

Now, maybe it's not over yet,
But you gotta admit that things moved on,
Feel the freedom you achieved,
Close your eyes and live your life,

Take no for an answer,
It's your time to lead,
Your time to be who you wanna be,
Live to your dreams,
Don't turn your back,
Not on anyone,
Not you,
Yeah You,
You live it higher,
Enjoy your ride,
Take it higher

If life is journey you cannot take,
Follow through and don't escape,
Endure the reasons behind the pain,
And the light will shine again,

Leave the worst that you may hide,
The vices beneath the air that we breathe,
Grab the stars that you have faced,
Believe in all you wished for,

Take no for an answer,
It's your time to lead,
Your time to be who you wanna be,
Live to your dreams,
Don't turn your back,
Not on anyone,
Not you,
Yeah You,
You live it higher,
Enjoy your ride,
Take it higher

You live it higher,
Higher than you can reach,
Up above in the sky,
More than meets the eye,
Find yourself on the way to greatness,
Don't lose your faith, Hold on to your love,
Open up to the world beyond you,
Time to fly away,

Take no for an answer,
It's your time to lead,
Your time to be who you wanna be,
Live to your dreams,
Don't turn your back,
Not on anyone,
Not you,
Yeah You,
You live it higher,
Enjoy your ride,
Take it higher

Just Fix It

Perhaps you understand why it end,
You took advantage of innocence,
You took advantage of my sanity,
You took away everything that's left for me,
You taught me how to be unkind,
In the city of lights you blinded my eye,
You took me down a road of crime,
How could you turn the book around,
Turn my whole world upside down,
You made this emptiness in my heart,
You taught me to believe that it's your place,
You're the missing piece to this mystery,
That hole you made in my heart,
Was deep enough to tear me apart,
You strike deep down within,
You left no room for me to breathe,
Perhaps now you realize,
That you should have, could have or would have,
Just fix it.

Inconvenient Truth

is a movie by Al Gore talking about the inconvenient truth we don't want to know in this world. So it has to do with all this Global Warming and all. I think everyone should watch it. Don't take advantage of the land and water we stand on people. Come on, buck up!

Diandra Arjunaidi

Hey, i like you fat and short!

Diandra Arjunaidi, most probably the most compatible person I've found in my entire 18years and 9months life. We practically like same kind of music, same kind of scene, same kind of clothes, same kind of hair, same type of people, same way of doing things, just that she's way hotter than me, at fact. (sob sob)

BUT, I love her the same, although she's (according to her) 21months younger than me, she's more or less like a sister figure to me. Someone that could make me wake up and bath those mornings i feel so shitty and lazy. *laugh laugh* For example, I usually have those days I feel so lazy to get my ass off the bed and start living, I'd just have to text her and say I need inspiration, her reply would get me going through hell again. The power of Diandra Arjunaidi! *laugh laugh laugh laugh (fuckin lame joke), laugh laugh laugh*

We first met in primary school of course. Never was in the same class but as we grew older, we sort of grew closer and closer and kaboomy. So I call Diandra by her family name, which is baby, but then it came down to B. Hahaha. So people often give me the looks when i go "BBBBB,". It first was like a joke to call her B, something like "AWWW. BABY, I SHALL CALL YOU BABY" kinda shit, but i got hooked. -__-" Oh well.

I guess one thing i can appreciate her on is that, even though we RARELY see each other, we know we have the best interest for each other at heart and that when we meet, we'd be normal and not arguing about ot inviting each other out or not having time to text. You know, those little petty issues, we tend to appreciate times we can spend with each other on better things than Ms. Petty Issues. *Laugh laugh, (omg, another lame line, i'm so lame today), laugh laugh laugh*

Diandra and I have this deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep passion on MUSIC and PHOTOGRAPHY. I would say it is indirectly our main BOND. We make music together, we both name our acoustic guitars together, although diandra claims that we're a female version of Tenacious D (No, we're not that bad, maybe I am but Diandra can sing though) and we have sleepovers then to make songs. We are camwhores of course, but also photography addicts. We like the fact of any photography competitions, sessions and now we rock the world with our new DSLRs. We also have mega obsession on anything British. We love London like crazy, shopping shopping shopping. The slang and all those shit. It's our favorite destination.

So basically Diandra's the kind of good friend where she'd seen me going through a lot. Trying to buck me up, keep my feet moving and giving me a slap in the face if i'm fooling myself. OH, best thing is, she's always someone that will make me feel comfortable with my body. FINE, my fat... *squirm squirm*. She's a constant reminder of loving your body and yourself for who you are and let no one tell you otherwise. Grateful for that. There's a gazillion things i could say about diandra but then I think blogger would sue me for giving out so much information. So here it ends. I love diandra arjunaidi and don't you break her heart, boy!

B, jgn kembang koyak sluar dalam otay? Hahahahahahahahahaha.

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Is blood really thicker?

Previously in families class, we learned about basic functions of family. I mean, this was really a long time ago but yeah, it just got to me. We were supposed to list down what a family is mainly made of. Most of us had the father mother children house pets love and all those other general things which actually does not necessarily make up a family. We were all wronged about our perceptions on a family. So, our teacher significantly pointed out the word Bloodline, or blood relationship in our posters too. She asked us all, "what does blood means to you?" "is blood really thicker?" You know how we always put family obligations first, and it's family over anything, or family first.

YET,

we are all humans. We breathe, we have brains to think, we have feelings, we act following our intuitions and instincts and we actually have full control of what we want to do. Except, our environment forbids us to most of the time. (Laws, Climates, Health, Etc.) We are thought to be civilized and brought up with state of the art education. STILL, blood in actuality means nothing among families. Who says your sister, father, mother, brother, aunt, or grandpa can't kill you, if they want to? Haven't we all heard the "I hate my family, or my parents suck, fuck that little bitch!" or something equivalent? How can we possibly be made to believe that blood relationships are thicker, it does not even necessarily mean a family.

It gave me quite a scare last time when my teacher explained this to us. I mean, how could most of us not realize that at the end of the day, we're individuals with our distinct personality. Love your family, stay home!

:P

Selamat Hari Raya.

I know I'm like three days late but at least I'm wishing whoever reading this, right?

So, This year, Raya is unbelievably BORING. Been stuck at home taking care of the household and my mom and sister when maid and dad's not around. Haven't been seeing any friends, which is more upsetting really. Loads of invites but little time. SAD. On the contrary, duit raya collection this year has been the best! That will fill back up my RM6.99 balance in my Maybank account. Hoorah Hoorah!

My hair has been from red highlights, to copper highlights, to shades of red highlights, to shades of copper and brown highlights, to one strip of orange highlights and now to fully deep purple. *SMOOOKKEEEE ON THE WATTERRR, FIRE'S IN THE SKYYY!* It's not visible to the naked eye, but the usual, the sun brings out the best of it and now it's short, but I'm not buying the layer, i want more sharp layers. I need to find a jinjang. Thought of highlighting it with caramel or something to add more colors. Too Boring For My Taste. But they did a good job repairing the splits and the dry disease coming on to my hair after awhile. Do visit Hair Kunst at Curve people. They're great.

I am getting fatter from fatter. Raya sucks big time. Diet sucks too. Wanna cry

:'(