PERGI TENGOK.

PASS THE WORD AROUND, YO.
SUPPORT DIANDRA IF YOU LOVE ME.

LOVE, NAD.
(YES THIS IS NADIA NOT DIANDRA)

Motivation Proclamation

So, it's one of those weeks I feel like reinventing or pamper myself, but it sucks, time is not by my side right now. I've entered Monash, and it's cool, one place i feel fit into right now. Can't believe I'm saying this, but I can't wait to start classes. Campus was the shit, people were nice and lecturers seemed cool. I HOPE SO. Anyways, need to manage my time, manage my money, my weight, grr, and practically my life. Oh, good news, my cousin has invited me to jamm with her and her sessionist. Probabaly record or video tape my songs. Awesome shit man. This friday yo! Wee. Another thing I'm looking forward to. And also, prolly heading to Zouk or anywhere in KL tonight. Heh heh heh. Partay Partay. 0_0

Love,
Nad.

I'm killing them all on my own little mission.

You know how they say as you grow old, the world seems more like a smaller place. Before you know it, you know everybody and everybody knows you and you make the connections as you go on. Well it can be remarkably cool, when you start expanding the connections and decipher what they really mean to you. However, these kind of things has it's cons. At times you just want to run away from people, avoid petty conversations and waving hellos and goodbyes. Or even get away from juicy talks, I would not know why someone would want to get away from that, but still. When the world became a smaller place, who wanted such riot.

Stronger.

You know how bad things happen for a reason? And some things come to an end just at the right moment? I'm actually glad it works that way. Seeing things clearly now, not clouded by fear or by doubts, I've come to realize that I'm always a notch higher. I'm always far more superior and life gets better everytime you learn something. The past, should really stay as the past. Things that has ended should not be rekindled if it ain't the worth. And memories do hurt, but take them as lessons. Your textbooks and notes in your very own guide to life. Good times come and go and we should not expect that it lingers on. Too much of a good thing is always a lie. Don't get me wrong, I still believe in love, but being out of love and solitary moments, makes you a stronger person by the minute. Because you learn about yourself and you become wiser. People who are perpetually insecure and trying to build talents or skills that are not meant to be lose the very good things felt in life. They wait and wait for something that are not themselves, they become another person, they're immature. And it's because they are perpetually concern about things that should not be concerned of, they lose meaning to everything they do. Their lives would then become unworthy and of no purpose.

Regardless, people should always be aware that happiness does not last forever either but if you don't let anyone hurt you, you are living your life well.

love,
Nad.

Distant Voices

Distant voices of regret screams at you,
Hollow sounds of my sighs,
You didn't know how to treat a lover,
And your lover just died,
Unspoken bonds and significant glances,
Come back upon your wasted dreams,
You took your time and lost the chance,
To be in the league you chased once.

She dies tonight,
Crying her lungs out,
She dies tonight,
Trying to reach on to you,
She's holding on to the edge of the air,
The air that you breathe,
So vicious, so vicious,
She dies tonight.

Sail

Somehow the coffee smelled better this morning,
With or without sugar,
Waking up was not as bad as yesterday,
Tears has finally stopped pouring endlessly,
And I felt,
Like I was finally getting used to this routine,
To how I'm supposed to be,
Just around you at least,
Because life's too short to just wait.

I reckon things will sail quite smoothly now,
Though we fear the ripples, tides and the waves,
No matter what we find in the middle of the sea,
As long as we are together,
The anchors are at our command,
And it's our choice to roam free or steer our way out.

I will sail the boat alone.

Hello Blog.

So, I haven't been blogging in awhile. I find the facebook note more interesting. But here I am again, blogger's still the best :) - whatever i write is going into the facebook note anyways.

Let's see, random updates on my life.

I'm going to the dentist tomorrow and then JPJ and then driving lessons and I've no clue what else later on. Prolly tea breaks? The usual for the soon entering Monash kid. ;)

I really want to lose weight. Period.

I still can't get over my awesome 19th Birthday Party, it was all white and oh, people were all over, all over the place. And i spent it with my best friends. And it had good djs supplying good music. Took great photos. I loved it. It was the best birthday party ever!

I got Benefit make up set from Ta, Odie, Diandra, Wel, Syasya, Dya, Haikal, Razim and Malik.
I got Benefit make up from Azim
I got a nice celcom necklace "party time" from Khairul.
I got a Man Utd Jersey from Ary, Nira, Kasyah and Acad.
I got a DKNY watch from Yaz.
I got Laura Mercier make up from Yenny and Jony.
....all for my birthday.

I can't wait for Rihanna, Valentines Party and Sunburst. (I haven't got my sunburst tickets)

I'm currently not positively happy about things in the general picture, but i'm hanging on quite well besides the emotional rollercoaster i go through.

I don't know where my money goes to. I'm always broke, but only because I'm saving up for something else.

I was in England from the 23rd till the 1st Feb. I went shopping like crazy and i came home with loads of new clothes and accesories and shoes and oh well, undergarments too! Mom got mad because the suitcase was hectic.

I miss my bestie, Azahary Azman, haven't seen him a lot.

I still haven't finish reading my Gossip Girls, A-Lists and Cliques.

I take less photos these days that it feels sort of weird because I used to take pictures on a daily basis.

I don't think I'm Single.

I've been feeling dumb for the moment, the fact there's no college and all, makes me very lazy to do anything about my knowledge capacit.

I'm entering Monash the end of this month. Shit so near.

I haven't finish watching my Gossip Girl, 90210, and L word either.

I'm addicted to the song Renee Olstead - A love that will last, Underoath - Some seek revenge, other's escape and Ferry Corsten - Holding On. -It's how I really feel right now. Hopeful, Fearful and Confused.

I wish I have the power of disposing some low lifes that do not know how to disappear from people's lives.

I finally feel like i can't wait to drive. (After 2 years, yes people.)

I feel like I want to clean a few things in this room I can't sleep in XD

I find Dc Comics and Marvel Comics the SHIT.

I bought this black skinnies in London and it seems like it's too loose. Fuck cold climate. I love it.

I'm staying away from being very vulnerable.

I miss my college friends. Anitt, Martin, Azrool, Ren, Elle, Aliza, E'ah and Iman.

My baby Pete, hasn't been recharged. It lacks of love lately. *Hugs Pete*

I lately am obsessed at the fact of replying my text messages refering to the thesaurus for similar words. I would think people find it peculiar but it's my english i'm improving, you can kiss your no good english goodbye. I love being literate.

I think I'm good at expressing my emotions and feelings into words and speech that I need to shut up at moments i should just shut up and leave where things has left.

I haven't done my nails in a VERY VERY long time.

Okay, so i think that's about as money updates on my thoughts, myself and my life so far. I feel like pampering myself tonight, maybe I'll go do some scrubing, washing and moisturizing. This sounds fun. Anyways, it's a long day tmrw, so why not right? Hello body products! I'm coming :)

XOXO,
Truly fattening.

Stars

I felt this way before,
A very long time ago,
It made such an impact,
Suddenly the stars didn't shine,
It was just there to be watched,
By people or other creatures that could bear to look at it,
That could bear the silent screeching noises of emptiness,
The stars were just like me.

If i could capture a shot of the stars,
You would not see them in the pictures,
They hide from the eyes of those who would pity them,
Even a flash of light, could not make them bright,
Could not help to cheer the spaces in between,
They were just too broken to shine,
The stars were like this heart of mine.

And if you see the star at night,
It's as if it's angles and edges we're torn,
It's starting to weep like a withering plant,
With no shine, comes nothing to support it's stature,
No creature bear the sight of the starts with no lights,
It was a pathetic scene,
The stars were like me, indeed.