Olympic Closing Ceremony.

You know that line "It is so beautiful I must cry"? - I CRIED WATCHING THE CLOSING CEREMONY.

Not that I was upset or anything. It was the fact that they made it so overwhelming, literally every hair on my body stood up straight and tears started to roll down. The music, the act, the people, the event and the atmosphere was too much my emotion could take. I swear to God I felt, not really sad but very very very overwhelmed.

Oh, the fact Beckham was there made me jump up and down out of excitement. I love David Beckham since I was like 9/10 or something. The handsomeness.

<3 :)

Hatred in the A.M.

I'm feeling so hateful right now, I'll make a list. Mind you, a lot of bitchiness content.

1. People who are non-sociable at school whatsoever suddenly becoming some major someone by online friends and network relationships. Not only that, they forget people who actually noticed their little presence in school. In addition, they act all cool and hip when truthfully, we, who have spent maybe all our school life schooling with them knows that he or she is just an ordinary, no sparkling, usual and normal people. (Maybe they spark late? Who knows)
2. People who claim they love PARAMORE, PANIC! AT THE DISCO and GOSSIP GIRL just when they are popular, well-known, Given airtime and Well have basically made it. Come on, they existed since I was like 14? And people are now overly screaming that they love them more than me. Get your fact straight. You all are just trend followers not real music lovers. I'd be frank right now, you can't separate me from my music. I hate hate hate you if you are one of these psycho unreal and idiotic morons. Fine, you were probably under the shell then that you didn't realize all of these when you were younger like I did. But still, don't try to tell me you're much of a bigger fan than I am. Gossip girl? I have the whole Cecily Von Ziegesar collection assholes. Don't try to say I'm just in love with Ed Westwick (although i am) and amazed by the uncanny resemblance of Leighton Meester to book described Blair Waldorf. I literally spread the news high and low when I knew the series was going to come. I even pre-order my cecily von ziegesars alright. So shut your mouth.
   
3. Ex-girlfriends/boyfriends that does not know how to get a life and disappear. Okay, honestly in relationships, you're bound to face difficulties and some of them might lead to a break-up right? Come on, it's usually both the party's fault. Don't be so obsessive. We're still young Open your eyes to see more people! Don't stick to one man, you're bound to waste so much time in the end.

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Do, do you got a first aid kit?

Why are people so overly sensitive?

I guess having SENSE is fine. Being SENSITIVE for a girl and a guy makes a person better because not being SENSITIVE at all is foolish and ignorant. Yet, being overly sensitive? Cut that crap, we all know you just want a bit more drama in your life. In relationships, fine, it is somewhat understandable that the guy or the girl is over sensitive with each other. This is because they share FEELINGS, they have FEELINGS towards each other, they have made this VOW to be each other's other-half (regardless it last long or not), they are a couple and usually, technically, normally, humanly and unexpectedly it is something that keeps the relationship working out or in, one way or another.

Being overly sensitive with such small things that does not even bring any good or bad in the future is mainly, Stupid. Some people just have the need to have drama all over his or her life that they forget that they are causing a lot of damage. Not physically, well possible but no, what i mean is, damage to a friendship, to other people's feelings, to the way people perceive you and to the whole society if it may. It's like a ripple effect. One thing effects another effects another and effects another. It'll never stop till someone is possibly emotionless. So why cause trouble?

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Why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win - Paramore

So, I've been trying to finish, actually, DO my homework since 9am but then I got hooked on MobWars and Battle of the Bands on facebook. Shitty ain't it? Anyways, I'm supposed to make a career plan for Business Management. What the hell do I really want to be exactly and specifically in the first place? I've always thought I'd be those Producers, Directors, Photographer, Broadcasting Technicians, Music Composers, Artists, Lyricist, Stage Managers, Event Manager, Journalist, Writer etc. etc. You understand me don't you blog? *LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH*

Anyways, back to what I was fretting about, what really am I going to be? I know I'm into media but I've no clue what job. How am i supposed to bullshit a career plan. Usually, I'm good at bullshitting and getting A's for it but a career plan. This is like an apple falling down on Newton's head man. I can't figure this one. Probably because a career plan means something more to me than just bullshitting A's. It actually directs and tells me where I'm headed. Eff You See Kay OB class. Why do you have to make me worried about my future when I just want to have fun! Let's list down what I like and know best, maybe that would help me out.

WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH INTEREST?!

Music, Photography and Writing. I'm an addict for these three things. (I need a career test) Maybe, I should be a film producer but heck, I'm not even taking anything on media in CIMP. I feel like I'm lost right now. I've taken Maths, English, LAN subject, Business, Economy and Sociology. I sound like I'd probably be a good journalist. On top of that, I write and make songs. I play the guitar (better than before) and I play the Piano. I can't get away from music even for a day. A music composer maybe? Other than that, of course, my ever so long since I was a toddler interest, photography. All I'm missing these days are SLRs. Waiting for daddy to buy me one. I love taking pictures, capturing moments, may it be out of vanity or picturesque scenes, view of anything, people, places. I just love clicking that shit. I love events too. I love organizing. Little parties, big gatherings, I supposed I don't mind being those Event Managers. At the entertainment stream mind you. Not those, corporate gathering or whatnots. I enjoy picking out little details such as table cloths, napkins, lightings, stage effects. (I miss prom) *Puppy dog face*

SEE, I still can't figure out what I want to be for real. I know I'm probably not going to be a photographer as my first job. I'd probably do that as an interest or as a part-time, freelance, need cash fast, kinda thing. However, now I'm still down to four jobs I'd probably pursue. Film Producer, Journalist, Music Composer and Event Manager. Wow, writing and listing it down here kind of helped. At least I'm down to four. *Laugh shaking head, going crazy, jumping, going down taking ribena for awhile*

Okay, I ended up playing Splinter Cell downstairs and have no mood to talk about career anymore. Gots a wedding to catch. Much love, <3

The way you think.

I do not understand why people judge so much. I am a victim of the circumstances but at the very least, I am still Open about many things. Honestly, you can tell me a lot of things without me being all that judgmental. What I'm trying to say is, I will judge you by telling myself that you're morally or ethically doing something not right. Standard ah. But, I will not personally have a problem against you, as long as you're not causing trouble in my life. That's fine hozay.

I admit to the world that I'm not those who stays and live on the good side of life. I enjoy being rebellious, breaking the law, doing things most people aren't easy with and put it all together, having fun without limits. I believe in Never saying Never because I don't want to be a BIG hypocrite. I know there are somethings that I am very much hypocritical about yet most of them aren't involved with experimenting the things you're thought to stay away from in life. I know it's confusing, try and understand what i just said. The thing is, although I live by Never saying Never, I have a rough idea what I want to be, Who i want to be, Where I'm going to go, What I'm going to do and How I'm going to live. Just because I'm outspoken and outgoing does not necessarily mean I'm a bad person. Why are we so twisted in our heads, have we no trust, faith and positivity?

Just for your information, status of my studies : FINE, a bit better than average. I'm not failing anything, I'm not missing out on anything and I'm definitely not someone who does not care about her academic life. I'm getting A's and do i deserve to be labeled as "Rosak"?

Rosak - A Malay word referring to broken, non-functioning or damaged. However these days rosak brings on a different meaning which indicates a wild and can't be help behavior of a person. Rosak is used to label people when they have gone bad, they get involved into deep-shits and all that comes under the same roof as that. My mom had always thought me to not be angry when judged because partially it's usually my fault. She thought me to take time figuring out what I've done and try looking at it from a third party's point of view. So, I've tried. Heck, I don't still don't see why I'm so God damned bad. It's not something new that I've been labeled as the bad people you shouldn't hang out with. It started way back from school days.

I have no respect to Old-gossiping ladies of Taman Tun, Overly judgmental but non helping teachers and Muslim advisers, Hypocritical friends that turn their backs upon their judgment and Distant, barely acquaintances that trash-talk others they do not know of at all. Have you nothing better to do in your life? Get a life, make it worthwhile instead. *Grunts grunts*

So again, I question, Why do people judge so much?
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Intolerable Life

I cried a moment ago not out of selfish reasons but because of the world I'm living in has clearly lost self-righteousness, dignity, integrity, moral and rationality.

I came across an email petitioning to stop child abuse and all those, my first thought was "oh, another spam or virus or those stupid junk mails". However, the title 9month old baby, raped got my attention. It sounded so sick that i opened it. Inside they were finding 1000 people to help stop child abuse in Africa. I was number 902 if I'm not mistaken. So they wrote something about in Africa, babies are being raped these days for many reasons. Some believe that the more virgin the woman is, the more likely that it'll cure aids. So they start targeting babies believing that it will cure Aids. Bullshit man. Being the suspicious me, I still didn't believe the letter, so I did a bit of research on it in the internet. To my horror, many babies in Africa are being raped. Many too had died.

Unusual as I can be, I sent out that message to most of my contacts. I couldn't help feeling so upset because just the thought of those sick men forcing their stupid dicks up babies are just so WRONG. They are little children for God's sake. Little girls. Who have not even experience CHILDHOOD. Innocent infants that know nothing and would probably would like to LIVE. What kind of world are we living in and where has all the humanity gone to?

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Current Wishlist =C

My current wishlist (According to which I desire most first) :

1. Nikon DSLR (D60 or D300)
2. Guitar Amp (Roland Micro Cube)
3. Guitar Strap
4. Guitar Bag
   
5. Capo.
   
6. Gladiator Sandals
7. Croc Sandals/Wedges
   
8. Jason Mraz CD
   
9. Amy Whinehouse CD
10. Turntablepc
11. Krink Markers
    

I think that are all for now. Will definitely update I guess :)

bluraydisciplak?

So people, I am in Penang and my latest discovery would be the Pirated Blu-Ray discs! :) *drools*

You know how like, Play Station 3 games are in Blu-ray right? and how they are EXPENSIVE. So basically, even if you have a PS3, buying games are in a way, more expensive. I mean, you can't just stick to one or two games. Game consoles are supposed to be played with a VARIETY of Games. This discovery of illegal copies and piracy makes the PS3 a much worthy buy :). I really hope they come out with PS3 games. Right now they are all movies. So far, so good. I can't stop smiling. Weee.

As usual, Penang makes me darker. Wouldn't say tan, i don't need TANNING. Malays don't need tanning FYI. *laughoutloud* We wouldn't want to end up looking like Akon offspring's. No offence to Akon that is. Anyways, bought more of those Kanye West shades. This time in shade of Orange and Bright Green. I think it's another of those things I'd like to collect.

Nadia is made out of many junks,
Mwah,

<333

Flashing Lights.

One of the best nights I had was on the 15th August 2008. The electroclash party was awesome and i enjoyed myself crazily. Emphasize, CRAZILY. ;)

Here's what i wore :


and later on it became :

It kinda got cold. Yep :P Hahaha. Well, we blame that on ourselves for getting into the pool. XD

Anyway, did not slept all night. Kept on dancing, it wasn't so much of electro towards the end, more like hard trance but whaddaheck, I loved it anyways.

One hell of a night to remember for sure,
Weeeee-ing,
<3333333

Myspace Music - Nadia Halina

I've created my myspace music, that way i can upload the songs i've been writing and compiling on my desk. HAHA.

www.myspace.com/nadiahalinanadiahalina

Cccheeeckkkkitout :)

Theories of the aimless.

Ain and I were talking in the car just now and we concluded that no matter how many theories or concepts we tend to think about at snippets of moments, when it comes to blogging about them, all is gone. Well most of it are actually still somewhere ambiguously written in our minds but converting them into our fingers, the keyboard and the monitor takes hell a lot of mind-force and brain-power. We couldn't figure out why it was like that but we figured out what the problem was at the very least. Ain's a great writer. Nice quotes, nice rhymes, nice theories, nice factual stories and nice long essays. She wouldn't allow me to access her blog YET. She said not enough materials and other shit. Dammit. I can't wait though.

Dying to read Ain's Blog,
Nad.
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Selling Stuff!

I'm going to start selling some things i have in my room which are

a)NEVER USED aka BRAND NEW
b)USED but in good condition
c)Mostly clothes range from size 10-16
d)Purses/bags.

Don't worry, I'm not going to sell you dirty, badly worn etc. etc stuff. All i need now is to take photos of what I'm selling and fix cheap prices for 'em. Hold on till it's on, alright?

From excited and in need of money,
Nad
:)

Farah Nasuha

cry as much as you want in front of me, but not in front of others, show that you're strong. - Ta

I will never forget those words you said last year, that line that really gave a big impact of how my life would turn out. The way you were perpetually there for me, the way you would come in right away to rescue me. Those days i needed you the most, those times that I will never can repay you enough. How you still had time in your busy hectic life for me, without fail.

I'm feeling a bit appreciative at this second, so I supposed I'd write this and wait till you find out this even exist. Judging by the way you're not really virtually social, ta.

Farah Nasuha Bt. Sudarman. March 6th, 1990. Ic Number - Classified. Phone Number - Dial me when you're horny. And the Ace at The World, The Politics, The Law and The Best At Fashion. Lives about 378steps away from my house and approximately 722meters from my room to your room. First Daughter of the families you have. Siblings, two cute monkeys Hana and Ayis. Taken care by a Genuinely caring mom which I KNOW looks EXACTLY like Ta in 25years to come.

Girlfriend of forever lelaki melayu sejati terakhir di dunia, Eizwan Hassany aka Odie (no, not garfield's dog). I've had the opportunity to see these two individuals conduct wars many times and at this rate, i think they have a good chance at getting married. Though, if anything fails (God Forbids), I'd still be here to get a chance and play a part despite witnessing it.

Oh, how i met Ta. Probably Ta was the biggest bitch in SK1, my badge. 1997-2002. However, I'm a carefree non-status judging person which probably was the one that gave ta the balance between good and evil. I mean, where else would Ta find her chi or her seventh heaven if she hadn't stumble upon a ever forgiving and loving friend like me. Ta can be the total opposite, judging by our weight, you would understand. But No, What i mean is our thoughts. Ta's all about facts facts facts, money money money, future future future and ofcourse, high fashion when Im all creative creative creative, music loving, photofreaking, virtual whoring and any fashion sensing person. Yet, you'd be surprise how we can finish each other's sentence and the worst, WE CAN'T LIE TO EACH OTHER. Which is to maintain a healthy friendship, GOOD but when you really need to LIE, NOT GOOD. We have our common love for deserts (The thing is she doesn't get fat, I Do.) and our favorite sinful activities behind the knowledge of the public. We have our little secrets and our inside jokes and our similarities. We have our little promises and our dreams. What do you expect, we're best of friends.

Ta is a person i owe so much to and i know she deserves so much more than what she asks for.
Love,
Nad.
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P/S: If you ever read this ta, don't consume too much self-pride. -__-

Olympics

Beijing Olympics Opening Ceremony was off the wall like Vans.

Even on TV it was awesome, the lights, the overpopulated people of China, the super many people in their performance. Oh boy, do they look great. The projectors, the fireworks, the concept, EVERYTHING. It was overwhelming, it gave me goosebumps. *laugh laugh*

I'm hooked to the TV with the competitions. Weeee~!

XD

People you think trust the most.

People you trust the most in actuality does not necessarily mean your bestfriend and your bestfriend does not necessarily mean forever and forever people is not the definition for happiness.

People are blind when they have this imaginary vision of how lovely forever is. Wake up from your fairytales, forever is actually hard to maintain, full of pain and it goes around that way time to time, again and again.

Have you no sense that if you say or wish to be in a relationship forever you're bound to get angry at each other anyways? Have you not realize that having "friends forever", you make yourselves fired up at the person that supposedly are your true friends forever when they make mistakes or betray you or leave you out or lie to you or hide from you and even indirectly stab your back?

What kind of world are we leaving in that we live by pretentious slogans, catchphrase and motto's like bff and i love you, forever ?

What kind of friend hides from you the truth? What kind of friends tell you something FALSE to make you live in a pretentious world such as a BFF? What kind of friends infuriates when you do something and ignores the fact that they're very much the same? What kind of friends be a hypocrite in front of you? What kind of friends lie and stabs you in the back? What kind of friend tells you that you're more important but doesn't believe it at heart? What use are pretentious, lying, stupid, ignorant, hypocrite and cowardly friends in this life when you only live once to enjoy it? Why do we take time to endure pain and put up bullshits for people we call friends when at a bigger picture, they do not feel the same way you do about them.

So people have mixed views, they say that, "Oh, after all the years we've been bestfriends, we can't leave now." I say it's another bullshit this world creates up to cover their flaws and mistakes as a form of being in denial. Yes, those were the days when your friend was nice to you, when your friend cared about you genuinely and when your friend actually took you as a bestfriend too. So get over it, it's over, people change and so does your SO CALLED bestfriends. All you can do to not feel all emotional about it is to realize that this world is over populated with many other people and you can make so much more friends and stick long enough with them to built a strong friendship all over again, when you fail, there's still more people to find. It's only a matter of do we, or do we not want it.

It proves I'm sick of people and the bullshit they have but no matter at the very least I'm still sane.

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Panic! Everywhere.

Alright, SORRY for not blogging for a long time, I'm not kidding the shit load at college. Anyways, the past week was filled with tests. -__-"

I JUST CAME BACK FROM PANIC! AT THE DISCO.!!! And God are they awesome to the maximum. Mega-awesome! :P Always thought Brendon was cute and stuff, but real life and close up, he's so so so so so so multiply by more so so so so cute :)

I am honestly right now in the screwing everything mood. My studies are a bit like a shaking pail full of water just ready to fall out. I'm screwing my life. -_-" I've been skipping a few classes. Mostly after break. It's the fact that sometimes Economy can get too much of talking, NOT BORING but just too much crap, i want to study not here crap. And i don't like my families teacher. Trisha. She's becoming more PMS all the time we come into class. So yeah, about the only perfect subject at this moment is OB, business management. Everything seems to be fine there.

Anyway, for IDC, we had to watch this movie called "Hotel Rwanda". I literally shed tears just watching the first part. I think about the only drive for me to go college tmrw is to watch this African Governmental movie. *Laugh Laugh Laugh* I'm not kidding you, the pain of watching it, the feeling of guilt not helping these people = Overwhelmed.

Alright, I need to sort of finish my Economy Project I've been procrastinating to finish.

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