I'm all out of faith.

this is how I feel.

Maybe, it's just the time of the month where your emotions really build up inside and out. Apparently, it's pretty much transparent and people could see right through you. I'm not one to hide, I'm just using this as a tool to express and to maybe change perspectives. Kill stereotypical mindsets too. April's are always not the best month for me anyways, regardless in any year. Hated April and hating this one too.

I'm short of cash and it is still early in the month. I guess that's a factor why I'm very unhappy. I haven't seen my friends for quite sometime. Or hung out in large groups for that matter. I have a feeling they find me to seclude myself from them, but they don't get the complications I'm going through. (No, I don't have cancer even though I sound like I have one) I'm so consumed in trying to make myself feel better that I don't have time to try and make people approve of my behavior. Friend's should not judge, but accept. Yet, that's not always the case. On the other hand, workload is not really my best friend at the moment. I'm so tired of work and work. Even this whole week of holiday is making me sick of work.

I'm just not in the mood to live up to anyone right now or anything for that matter, just myself.
So be it if I'm a bitch and I'm selfish.
Love,
Nad.