To whoever who is recovering from a broken heart.

Today I realized that all the things I've done was a one step recovery from a broken heart.

I am not ashamed to admit that I've been depressed, dealing with rebounds, extremely spending my time on the outside world, neglecting my health, wealth, and everything that coincide, mistakenly fall flat and back up again a few times, shortchanged my decisions and recklessly living on the edge. Some parts, I've neglecting the people who were mostly there for me, my family and my close friends. I have lied, been in denial, saying that I'm over it when I'm not and I have made up stories to some, those who do not know the truth yet, to just mentally make myself feel a lot easier to breathe.

I admit that I'm tired trying to get over it, trying to heal it and trying to see where time goes with it, I'm tired of faltering on the drunken texts or stoned dialings and heck, a lot of embarrassing moments.

But the best part is, a big part of me feels like I do not regret anything or everything I did, do and doing. I admit to my mistakes and ponder on the possibilities and what ifs but truthfully, I think I've made pretty good decisions and said pretty nasty things that needed to be said and not sugarcoated anyways. So I am truly happy. Inside, although sometimes I wonder about the endless heartbreak I feel, I know my day and me as a person, is enough. I love myself.

Learning to love myself and what I do makes me appreciate life and people even more. Concerning to the epic break up of my life, I am not even That mad at my ex anymore. Might be said too early, I know, but I learn to understand that everybody changes and sometimes we don't agree on the same things anymore and we have to make different choices for our life. I just hope that the void and pain he gave me, would soon be replaced by better things in life, not necessarily a person, but just something better. And I just hope that one day when we talk, I wont feel like shedding a tear or falling helplessly in love with the old person I grew up with for those are nothing but beautiful memories.

We all don't need to cry over spilled milk, buy another bottle.
<3