Current phase.

-multi-tasking.

I'm in the phase of wanting so much things with so little resources. Well specifically, I lack on discipline, time, freedom and mostly, money. No moolahs, no hurrah baby. And this predicament I am in makes me feel slightly disappointed, upset, almost depressed but not there yet and infuriated. Honestly, the last time I bought something for myself without feeling the slightest worry about money, was ages ago. I mean, when was the last time I actually stepped foot into my favorite retails? Anyone recall me purchasing topshop, dorothy perkins, forever 21, zara or reject shop for that matter? God.

Next is on my physical confession. I have lost, a lot, great, thanks people for the compliment but then I'm just not there yet, not at my ultimate aim and my initial goal. I've been very bad with my liquid diet, suddenly food just came into the picture and made me all salivating for more and it's not that I don't try, food is just everywhere. And to just lunch it, it's as if it is a too short of a period to eat. So, there, that's it. I'm trying to reform this problem by having more outdoor activities. Since diandra hasn't started college yet, jogging seems the easiest way out, before i turn into a gigantic slob again. God.

I know my greatest remedy is my boyfriend and my bestfriends of course. But it just ain't a lasting remedy that consults my heart and desires the way I want it to. At a point, one must just reach and climb on their own to get to their needs. So yes, I need to feel how I want to feel and get to the wants I want.

I'm pretty much feeling determined right now. Thanks for providing this writing space blog. I love you my one way, non interactful friend.

Till then,
The fat woman shall speak again,
Love,
Nad.